this is where i pour out my thoughts on the internet for anyone to see!

what - 11/16/2025

i'm feeling better lol. i was able to look more at the good things in life today, despite not going out that much. so...............i have to clean my room. the last time i thoroughly cleaned it was in the summer, and it's getting messy again. i also should fold my clothes....I'LL DO IT!

every time. - 11/15/2025

every time i think of making another blog entry, i never do it. maybe it's because i'm not thinking of my past thoughts from hours ago, and i wouldn't put them down. i have homework to do anyway. it's due monday though. anyway, this part of my life seems to be the worst years of my life. i have a lot of things though. i'm not rich or anything, but i do live in a house. i have parents and brothers. why should i even feel this way? i want to let go of what happened to me in the past, but it's hard to do when it affected your future. right now i'm feeling ok, but i just want to write thoughts i've had recently. i miss my best friend, but she has other best friends. i used to have other best friends and people that i WOULD have been best friends with. i DO have friends, but i'm not...as..close...with..them. i just don't let anyone get too close. why? maybe that's why they don't talk to me--because i don't really talk to them. when i let myself be..vulnerable like that, i was taken advantage of and i kind of KNEW IT. keeping those secrets felt like being eaten up inside. i don't have secrets like THAT anymore lol. i'm just....jealous. i guess. because i want a boyfriend. all the boys at my school are short, gay, or just not my type. what i really want is for someone to rely on. i'm religious. i'm a Christian, and because of what happened, i understood more of what Christianity is about. in a way... ANYWAY. the thing that's on my shoulders is something that has nothing to do with the events i just talked about. i was...i think i was...maybe or maybe not. i don't remember. i DO remember, but it was like a blur. i was 6 going on 7. wait...did someone say 6..7? be quiet. this isn't something to joke about. at least no ADULT did dat. he was.......nine. why am i talking about this on NEOCITIES? i WILL delete this. having that happen to me felt like a bandage being forcefully ripped off your skin. i feel like my love language is physical touch, but like....i don't know. i don't know if i was actually... anyway. my teacher saved me from something worse. i don't want to talk anymore. GET OUT BRO 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

peace - 11/10/2025

it feels good to not be in school today. it's because of a teacher in-service day. i just like spending my time at home without having to study or do homework. i just finished a paragraph i needed to do for ela, so i'm free for the rest of the day! i was planning to make smore's cookies yesterday, but i feel like today is a better day to make them. i love cookies -_-

am i losing interest? - 10/26/2025

i feel like i'm losing interest in my website. sometimes i don't have the energy to code anything, even though i have a lot of unfinished pages. i've been finished with adding websites to my links page, but i didn't decorate it yet. i want to do THAT!!

huh - 10/17/2025

every time i update my website, i look at my follower count and how many views my site has. how do i have almost 300 followers and 14,000 views when my site isn't even finished? i'm mainly talking about my homepage...i guess. when i'm not updating my website, i have a lot of ideas for it. when i do have time to work on it though, i get distracted with other things or i get demotivated. as of writing this, it's 12 midnight, so it's now 10/18/2025. this website was just created as a hobby, a pasttime, and a place for personal expression. hmm...

first entry?! - 9/9/2025

i don't want to write too much for my first entry because this is only the beginning. i should be doing homework instead of typing this, but i wanted to put something in my blog. what should i put here? maybe i should talk about how i already want to get to the best parts of my school year. it hasn't even been 2 weeks of school! i'm just excited for what's to come. that's all in the future, but i can't help thinking about THOSE THINGS instead of my math homework.