i have 11 days of spring break...and this is my second one. i haven't really been doing anything though. i started cleaning out my closet, but i'm only halfway done...i'm like..renovating my wardrobe. i guess.
earlier i watched the Passion of the Christ (2004) since it's Good Friday. it's my 2nd or third time watching that movie. i cried btw. i hope you cry too if you ever watch it. okaay that sounds weird out loud. it just means a lot that Jesus would die for our sins. well, that's what I believe.
lately i've been thinking......about CULTS. i know about mormons and how they're mostly in utah and they were persecuted in the 1800s for practicing polygamy and THAT'S why they moved to utah. i've never met a mormon irl or online though. but. i know about some other cults too. i'm talking about modern-day cults that look like they're Christians, but they twisted what the Bible said. i'm thinking about this since my aunt is a Jehovah's Witness and my cousin and her family are members of Ang Dating Daan. neither of them celebrate Christmas btw. i know there might be cults that do, but that (not celebrating it) is a marker for me because Christmas is a Christian holiday. idk i'm just trying to make sense of it all.
2 months ago when i was going home from something, i saw this Iglesia Ni Cristo church and my first thought was, "wow there are other filipinos in this town?" and THEN i was like, "isn't that a cult?" the words "iglesia ni cristo" literally mean "church[like the church is the Body] of Christ" . huh..
religions are waaaay more reliable than cults since cults..come out of religion. and not all religious people truly believe in their religion, no matter what religion you are. i'm just a Christian..my denomination is Baptist btw. i was actually raised like this as a Baptist Christian. the church i've been going to for almost 5 years is actually Real. if you ever go to a church where people judge others, use people for money, and do things for their own benefit, then....
i'm trying to make sense of some things. i'm just grateful that my life is.......... is......... good right now.

so. imagine this. you wake up at 6 AM and take forever just to get ready for school. then you drive the 30-40 minutes to school. you're not even the one driving Lol. then, you go to school. after that, you go home, do your homework, and spend time browsing the internet. this is an average day in my life.
well, today i'm feeling alright. i got an 88 on my science test which is alright, but not my best. i have to do this social studies project that i have to hand in tomorrow and i barely started it!! this blog sounds so mundane. it's because today is MUNDANE MONDAY AHAHAHAHAHAHAH
on saturday (3/28), i went to the thrift store! i went to the one that's new in town on its Grand Opening. there were a lot of cool things there. there was this cool pink and black graphic t-shirt i wanted to buy, but it was Sooo big bro. there was also this cute lace tank top i wanted to buy, but it was Too Small. Hah. at least i bought other clothes i like!! i wanted to buy jewelry too, but my mother does not approve of used jewelry from the thrift store. i understand her point of view. uhh i'm saying all this stuff because i want to change my wardrobe. it's really messy, but it won't be FOR LONG! i usually like wearing souvenir shirts from places i personally have been to....but i also like wearing tank tops (the ones with sleeves of course!!). i Alsoo like wearing skirts, but idk what happened to them. i'll just make new clothes out of old clothes l8r.
I FORGOT spring break starts on thursday!! i can't wait!! i won't have to focus on school at all!!
WAIIITTTTT i have this thing for this SCIENCE FAIR. but i wont do it over spring break. i can do it in the 6 days after spring break LOL
... speaking of which, i went to get rita's. wow. i got this gelati with cake batter custard and green apple water ice because Apples and Bread. that's what i was thinking of..
my life sounds so good. doesn't it? idk. this is just another passing day. i can't wait for summer spring break. it's in 3 days. 2 more days of school....
i've been thinking. what if i lived in a remote province and really wanted to go to school? now i feel bad. i mean, i like school sometimes and i think school is really Necessary, but...in any circumstance, everyone has problems. my main problem is that I'm Shy..Heh.. and that i have a nonexistent friend group. i have friends, but not a friend group. i don't know how to socialize sometimes. i wasn't always like that though. idk.

HAIIIIII i've been leaving dust to collect on this blog, so to speak. it's digital dust...i'm back with another blog entry. i'm just updating different parts of my website, and lately i've been working on this.
i have 4 school projects to work on, and they're all due at the end of the month, but i need to work on this math project that i have due monday. bro. i need to focus!! i can't wait for spring break. by then, i won't have to focus on school. gtg bye

it's been exactly one month since i last made a blog entry here. i Have made blog entries on google keep in school, but i have more time to write at home.
the reason why i made this entry's title about how tired i am is because i simply...feel tired. i feel sleepy, but not exhausted. umm...well, uh, i'm just glad that it's the weekend. now i have more time to work on my site!! i actually have to focus and lock in now.........
random: you might see me in these clubs in high school: asian culture club,(i LOVE celebrating different cultures! and i'm 🇵🇭), baking club, coding club, crochet club(maybe), liturgical choir, rock band(i like guys who know how 2 rock thats why), sketch club(if one of my friends joins it with me)
sports/performing arts: cross-country, (might try out for)volleyball, spring musical

hiiiii. i had 2 days off from school because of the snow. well, i technically only had 1, since i had asynchronous learning for 2 hours the 2nd day. i'm going back to school tomorrow. -_- i'm just looking forward to getting my social studies midterm score. that's it.
soooooo. i was able to talk to my best friend. we talked for a short time, but we mainly talked about anime. we like similar animes!!! that's cool. also, i'm really working on my media log. i didn't add any reviews yet because i'm uploading images of things i'm going to review. slowly but surely. i have to sleep soon, so i'm keeping this entry short.

it's a new year! with the new year comes new goals and new things to look forward to. on the first day of 2026, i didn't do much at all. i was sleeping for most of the day because i stayed up late for the countdown. i was also preparing my things for the next day, january 2nd. i would be going to the poconos for a church retreat!!
it lasted from january 2-january 4. i learned a lot of things there. i learned more about sex than i ever would have, i learned about other people and their lives, and i learned about God. it was amazing. it was a vacation retreat i really needed before i went back to school, and it's much better than a vacation.
i could talk about the retreat for like 1 hour, but i also want to talk about what happened afterwards. when i went back to school, i was soooo tired. i was almost late on monday and tuesday. on wednesday was when i was actually late.
sigh.. school is pretty draining. i should be in school right now, but i'm not because i'm SICK. tomorrow i'll go to school. -_-
ANYWAY, something embarrassing happened to me. i embarrass myself every year and will myself to forget about those things. people, including me, constantly change and grow. the thing that happened to me happened last week. you can skip through the italicized text idc.
at the end of the school day, while waiting for the announcements to say "all activities are dismissed" or something like that, i had to go to the bathroom. my bag (and everyone else's bags) were out of the closet, but all my classmates were busy playing some game. i had no pockets (bro) so i grabbed my pad and just walked to the bathroom bro. you may ask, "why didn't you put your pad in your skirt?" well, people would notice! i didn't want to be noticeable. so i walked to the bathroom with the pad clenched in my fist yo. i thought that no one else was gonna be there because i KNEW that the end of the day was the best time to go to the bathroom and be alone.
when i stepped in the bathroom, this 6th grade girl saw me as i was going in and said "someones got her period" while i was already in the stall. thank GOODNESS she didn't recognize me at first sight or else i would CRY. she and her best friend were laughing so fricking LOUDLY about it. it would have been better for them to say "someones on her period." and think of it as a normal thing. it is embarrassing for someone to see your pad clenched in your fist, but it shouldn't be a big deal and something to REALLY laugh about. i posted this on pikidiary when it happened..
OKAY. it already happened anyway. sigh. i auditioned in my school play and got a good role, i went to my school dance, i got scars on my two heels just from wearing shoes, i got a ring stuck on my finger and had to go to the jeweller's to get it out, i went to this girls' bible study, got yelled at, got sick, took a nap, and is absent from school.
there's ONE more thing i wanted to write about! i chose my high school! i go to private school and i'll be going to private school for high school, so i had to choose. i'll be going to this school 40 mins away, but i think it'll be better for me. that's all. blog finished: 12:20 PM